Learn to be a loner

Today, i ate my lunch by myself.. THE FIRST TIME EVER .. before, i was used to have 1 or more than 1 persons accompanying me having lunch.. :'( .. so sad.. but i think, it is quite important for me to live lonely abroad.. it's quite fun though :b ..

I ate at Sydney Fish Market.. many stupid birds wanted to eat my food .. soo, I was eating and shocking the birds not to touch my seafood hihihi.. I bought oyster, salmon and fried squid.. I ate at outdoor of Sydney Fish Market, therefore there are many stupid white birds always quacking asking for food .. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr hate it so much..
I LOVE OYSTER SOOO MUCH .. but i can't eat much since it will increase our cholesterol.. so i just ordered half dozen..

anyway, yesterday, as usual, i had phone chatting with aan.. hmm... i was totally confused if i want to apply PR or not.., in the phone chatting, i blamed aan a little bit indirectly.. Blame him to give idea applying australia PR etc. Because of his idea, i started to think about that. The first important think to do if i want to apply PR is, i have to switch my degree and renew my student visa. I am lazy to renew my student visa if i switch my degree from M Com to M Prof Acct and extending 1 year study more but in other side, i want to apply PR but also hoping time will run fast .. arghhh..
I have to arrange all matters with Australian Imigration and UNSW .. i'm so unwilling to do that hehehe, so lazy :b .. In addition, when i was talking to him, Aan told me that sometimes, i am not OPEN to him.. he said sometimes, i don't talk openly and in details about my problems and thoughts. Actually, I DO IT .. but, sometimes, the things that crossing in my mind can not be explained fast and in details.. I have problem to represent my thoughts into sentences.. Sometimes, i explain it briefly because i don't know how to explain it in details.. Yesterday, i was totally confused .. and out of nowhere, i was asking aan "Let's go to heaven" heuheueue.. am i stupid ?? I was soooo confused yesterday.. ..